WITHOUT MUCH TALKING

Nama   : Ni Luh Denmacika Widiary

Nim     : 1112021098

Kelas   : 4E

WITHOUT MUCH TALKING

            Rule is a set each person’s behavior in doing an act. All things must be related to the rule. From the smallest instances, such regulation in the family. Every family has different rules. There is a prohibition to leave the house until night, but some are allowed and do not care about the circumstances. In my family, there are rules that are very applicable. No one has dared to violate the rules. Father is the owner of the power of all, he controls all things in our small family. We have always tried to follow, either because of respect or fear to him. I had an experience that made me pause and bury all, because the commands and wishes of my father.

            When I was still studying in senior high school, I had a dream of becoming a professional architecture. Because I feel, it is still rare woman became an architect. I dream high, can make housing patterns, and working with contractors to further advance the business and my work. In addition, it may be my hobby, sketching and designing things. Other than that, I really like to imagine about design of house.

            When I pass the national exam, all students must be busy for desired college. Like me, I followed test in order to learn about the technical architecture. Test ended and just waited for the results. When the announcement is already came out and my name was listed there with a very satisfying for me. Just imagine, I was following the rules, that re-registration at the university. I can relax, because I already can university which I want.

            However, I had never thought before, my father told me to follow one test at other university. I know I am not too smart in this area and not confident speak in front of class. Being public speaking is something I had never imagined before. Because I know I not confident person. Instead of speaking in front of people, in front of the class I have to prepare mental from far-away days. This was the command of my father, so I have to follow his order. Finally I followed the written test and interview. Surprisingly, I passed. Although the value in this test was not better than the previous test in architectural engineering, I was still grateful to have been accepted at college.

            Now I am here, to leave all the dreams I have ever dreamed, trying to understand and accept the situation. I felt very heavy and hard to believe it all. It is all a lot desire and dreams, very complex things on my mind. I know, parents will never drop his daughter. They always want the best for their children, in any way they do what to make their children happy, comfortable, and successful and appreciated by the public. However, do they know what is needed by their children? Do they want the same thing with what their children want? And do they know, their children can do well or not? Until now I have never asked this to my mother or my father. I can only think and ask my heart, though I know I will never know the answers to those questions.

            Denmacika Widiary is one student of English Education Department. That is me. I felt I was scared and could not finish my education. I am unsure of myself, because I never thought to learn the English language better. But what can I do now? I had the choice to try to meet my father’s wish. May God give all of the funds easy for me? Currently I am thinking to get through this all as they are, without having to fight the currents flowing there and loved this lesson. Tried and tried to do it, as much as I can to complete it all. Motivation of the family, that is what kept me here to accomplish all of this to its conclusion, and with good value because I do not want to make my parents disappointed, especially father.

            So until now, I only keep silent, without much talking, protesting and revolting. I think, it is just stupid thing that could damage the relationship between parents and child, because it is a parent’s duty must to follow the rules and make him proud of us. For what fun and fulfill her desire in the beginning, t is good to be able to accomplish ll of this. That is what was in my mind; so far I was able to survive in this class. While walking slowly, but I assure you, I certainly could pass as normal and good. Hopefully there are no barriers or obstacles that are dropped.